Guess what I am so very excited about? The new skills I'm picking up to change my perspective on things. I read a quote earlier that says it takes the same effort to make ourselves miserable and it does to make ourselves stronger. I could not agree more. Anytime I relive the bad stuff from the past, it feels like self abuse and from talking to a good friend of mine, I realized that I have to pull my shit together.
I'm getting better at not focusing on what happened and instead finding the skills to forgive and move forward. As my good friend says, it's impossible to forget so that's a lost cause.
My gratitude journal is working out for me as well. I'm making it a priority to fit in friends time and surround myself with good vibes. Finding funny things to laugh about is great too. I'll be visiting a LMSW just to gain more resources about making myself stronger. Let's do this!
Tuesday, December 9, 2014
Wednesday, December 3, 2014
More Numb
For a little over a month, I've been through such an emotional rollercoaster. Honing in on the incident and coming up with a million questions when it's really just so simple did not help. Although unnecessary, I still came to work with puffy eyes and face. Noticeable to my boss as well.
Yes, I still get sad every now and then, but not compared to the pain I felt several weeks ago. There aren't really panic attacks (or at least as often). My doubt and feeling of betrayal has dwindled. Time really does heal.
There's such a wealth of tools that can be used even in your darkest times. Some days I felt like I couldn't get through. I wanted to reach out to everyone that I felt could give me words of affirmation that I'll be okay but instead only sought the emotional support of a couple people. I realized that I don't need for someone else to tell me that things will turn out fine. Only I could do that for myself otherwise I build a dependence.
Take the love from family and friends just for existing (not necessarily to help with the situation) and focus on the happy moments. For dark moments, I read blogs and quotes. I'm a big quote person so this worked out better and better. C'est La Vie.
Yes, I still get sad every now and then, but not compared to the pain I felt several weeks ago. There aren't really panic attacks (or at least as often). My doubt and feeling of betrayal has dwindled. Time really does heal.
There's such a wealth of tools that can be used even in your darkest times. Some days I felt like I couldn't get through. I wanted to reach out to everyone that I felt could give me words of affirmation that I'll be okay but instead only sought the emotional support of a couple people. I realized that I don't need for someone else to tell me that things will turn out fine. Only I could do that for myself otherwise I build a dependence.
Take the love from family and friends just for existing (not necessarily to help with the situation) and focus on the happy moments. For dark moments, I read blogs and quotes. I'm a big quote person so this worked out better and better. C'est La Vie.
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